Some days we just need to go back to brownies. This comforting, nurturing delight that you can sink your teeth into and have the ooey, gooey chocolate, crumble down your chin, and fill your mouth as that familiar smile of joy and satisfaction creeps across your face. THere’s something about it that always makes you happy, always leaves you fulfilled, and in some hard to explain way, makes you feel like everything will be okay. Even if it’s just that it is okay in that moment, because you are procrastinating whatever you are actually supposed to be doing by baking and eating brownies. Been there done that.
Here’s the thing about food blogging: sometimes it’s hard to think of new ideas and recipe plans. Sometimes the inspiration seems a little dry, or all the ideas that you think of are dismissed by that voice in your head that says “yeah, but everyone is making that right now.” Sometimes it’s because of a series of flops and failures. One mess up after another, where nothing seems to be working out, or the idea that you had doesn’t actually end up working out as glamorously as you had it planned in your head.
This is in contrast of course, to those times when your brain seems completely overloaded with ideas and inspiration and creative energy, and the only thing you can think of is,”oh my golly, I have to write that down so I don’t forget!”
Things have been quiet around here. Maybe partly as a function of being crazy busy, with lots of projects and things on the go. But isn’t that true for us all? Maybe as a function of a broken oven that restricts my creativity options. But in reality, it’s a limitation, that should really only be forcing me to be more creative, more resourceful, more into the whole trial and error of testing out new recipes and ideas.
Or maybe just because I haven’t really been that inspired lately. I’m not thinking of heaps of ideas of things that I want to try like I usually do, or, I’m not bursting with recipe ideas, filling an already overfilled notebook. I’m not really into the idea of just posting something for the sake of it. I’m not really into just making a really simple, basic recipe that is stock standard because I can’t come up with anything else. Inspiration ebbs and flows. In recipes and in life.
And I think we need to be okay with that. I think we need to be okay with this idea that all things in our life ebb and flow a bit. Maybe it’s with running, and you don’t want to run, maybe it’s with cooking and you just want to make and eat the same thing every day. Maybe it’s with your hobby or creative passion, where for some time, for some reason, it’s just not there.
I’m not interested in making excuses for this natural shift in inspiration. It will come back. I’ve seen little nigglings of it in these past few days. And maybe this low point is a chance to climb up higher, come back stronger, get a new, big dose of inspiration to carry me through for the next while. I’m okay with whatever it means, and however long it takes. Because in the meantime, there’s brownies. And everything will be okay.